monster

upon talking about monster, one has to admit that, no matter how good you are, you still have a he-wolf/she-wolf, somewhere inside. and no matter how hard you try to keep it down, at times, it will rise, and cause lots of damages.

it brought us to another subject. damage. how hurtful can the simple word, 'damage' be? well, its very painful, if you asked me. to let ur trust goes on for someone, and been betrayed by that someone, all in the same time, ur expecting someone else who did that. and to think that he even have the guts, to not admit it. and lies about it. what a creepy monster. one that should have never been let out, or else he will wander, and broke people's heart and lives.

now then, there's heart. heart is, of course, the center of it all. AlFatihah is the heart of Quran. Heart is the nucleus in plants. but, in other context, heart is what we feel, what we perceived, what we are strongly attached to. but then. what if the heart gets burned, by all the previous hurtful stuffs? what happens, if people, with unreasonable mind, say all the terrible things in your face, and blame u for that? what happen if they go, and just simply invade your privacy, expecting you to believe whatever reason they gave u? what happens if a mother simply put other child as a priority, compared to others?

now, what will happen, if all this happen? what happens to the tiny little heart?

it sorta made me wonder. is the monster suppose to teach us lesson? is it the karma : what you give, is what you get back? of course, the monster in form of ourselves, is much more worst, indeed. but what if, it cames in others' body?

now, i know i may not be perfect, and lack in much more. but i really hope this monster realizes what they did to me, and how bad they have made me feel. sometimes people just have to accept, it is not always about the monsters that they are, but to find the bit of 'angels' in themselves.

OH!
a)Happy 20th Birthday to Badrul Muzammel. Have yourself a good 20, next year!
b)My result is out. Though something did bother my mind about it, but there are other things i wanted to be thankful for. Alhamdulillah, and a very thankful for everyone who has helped me, to this extent. Lecturers, friends, families.
;)

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Aloha Bloggers.
Hm, dont have much to say. a week in malacca, well what d'ya expect? UES- like life? hah! keep dreaming. but this we, week has been quite, exciting, i guess.

*Isnin*
Arrived at Malacca, around 11oclock. takpaham ape yang Miss Shahiszan ajar ECO. penat dan balik tido. gerimis dan hujan pla membaluti tubuh! enaknya tidur! kemudiannya, ke KFC bersama room mate. seronok dibelanja. haha.

*Selasa*
Tiada apa sangat. Bergegas ke library seawal 9 lebih. Print proposal Publishing. 'Laskar Pelangi'. haha. Petangnya, Broadcast pula. Bosan since Azah tidak pulang lagi. Risaukan dia. Taknak dia quit. Echa surh tanya kan proposal tak pergi. Busy gile, kot. Cut me some slack.

*Rabu*
Eco lagi. Masih tidak faham, Walaupun baru Chapter Dua. Demand dan Supply adalah amat susah, OK! haha. Makan di Medan Selera Lendu bersama budak kelas. Thank God. Walaupun ada sekelumit drama dengan budak kelas yang satu, yang lain, OK je. hee. Kelas Advertising tiada. Yay! Ke library bincang tajuk Modern Issues. Berniat puasa Syaaban untuk esok. Duit dah habis! Tambah masalah, tak pergi meeting KOMED. Setiap kelas hantar satu/dua wakil. Siapalah kelas aku yang nak.

*Khamis*
Lambat ke class Modern Issues. Lucky dapat lecturer datang lagi lambat. Habis kelas, balik bilik. Boom kejap. Kurang tidur. 12.15, made way to tangga library. Turn out, keluar juga ke Melaka, walaupun puasa. Haha. Karaoke dua jam, Movie Setem. Watson. Buka di Borahan. BEST! thanks bunches Kerel, Namot, Yanie and Fika. Bump into Faiz. Missed him! Malam, induction Part One di block. Best. Tapi Part One agak kerek.

*Jumaat*
Kelas Publication. Lambat lagi. 8.30 kelas, bangun pada 8.24pagi. haha. Nasib baik Mr. Rusydi. Dapat assignment. F1, for this semester. Friday prayer. Then, ada plan keluar. But being me, aku taknak overnight. The others, like forcing me too. Hmm. Around 9.30 mlm lebih, barulah dapat kereta. Malam di Pengkalan Balak. Sotong goreng dan Benjo. Sedap. Cuma 'mood' dirosakkan oleh 'Pondan Psiko'. Haha.