meeting people.

The best thing about going to Pavilion, KLCC, Lot 10, and seangkatan dengannya, is that you could almost bump into semua orang. best lah.

setelah dua hari di rumah, hari ini, hari Ahad keluar.
Tanpa plan, tanpa rush, pergi saja.
Best. Pergi terserempak dengan Dyla.

Jumpa Katy. Jalan - jalan.

Jumpa Fikri, malu lihat rakannya yang semua vogue. And aku? Berbaju putih balut nangka, and berseluar koyak jeans.

Terjumpa pula Ash Mahfuz. Bercerita.

Last, Dyla and Shah. Lama sungguh sejak tak melabuhkan punggung di taman KLCC bersama mereka. Perkara yang pernah menjadi rutin harian.

Dan Zain. Rakan yang baru dikenali pada pukul 3 petang, dan dah mula berSMS pada jam 11 malam. Haha.

Dan sekarang Mel's. Amat Seronok.

KL memang seronok. I wish I could just stay here, forever.

"I Just Follow Them"

Now what does this phrase, or rather four words, mean?
Simply, "I don't know what happened, I just goes along with the plans".

Now consider this, "F*** D****".

Its just too private to tell.
Kadang-kadang terfikir jugak, baek sangat kah aku ni? Suka membantu, fikir pasal orang lain. . .Tapi, apa balasan yang aku dapat? Apa balasan yang aku harap? Hurmm.

Pondan berangan terus berangan. Bilik yang suatu ketika seronok dan Thrilling, sekarang dah macam cibai. KL adalah pengubat duka. Rakan pon, semakin menghilang. Dicemuh, di caci. di hina. . Lumrah kott.

Sekarang, apa yang boleh di harap adalah semoga semester berakhir dengan cepat.

Tapi, best thing is, I know that there will always be one who loves me. And miss me.

Huu.

.Up and Down.

'When a Window Closed, Another Door Open'

Does it really applies?
humm.
Ada kah 'window' untuk aku?
Door? Humm.
Tiada pun. Tidak sekelumit cahaya dari sebarang lubang pun.

Dramas Mountings, Friendships at Stakes, Studies on the Verge.
That's the life of mine, for the past two months.

Kenapa? Gowd. Ini balasan aku, mungkin. Mungkin cara-Nya untuk menguji. Untuk memberi yang lebih baik. Mungkin.
Sebagai manusia, kita tak lari dari silap. Tapi, entahlah.
Aku dah penat, dengan drama, dengan sikap manusia lain, dengan kehidupan di uitm.
KL adalah syurga dunia. Bagiku, lah.

Bukan berniat mendiskriminasi, tapi, semuanya begitu komplikated.

"One more thing, A*** dah taw pasal ko mesej ngan J**** ".

"Ko nie memanglah Acap, skema gile. Tak pyahala buwat smue tu".

"I still love you.. but.."

"Taw pon balek bilik, ingatkan x jumpe jalan balik dah".

Gosh.
It's all, so, very much untuk ditangani oleh seorang yang belumpun 20.

Bukan niat untuk come across, bukan niat untuk menyepi, tapi, entahlah.
Dengan gambar direject. Dengan pondan2 berangan. And, seorangan menghadapi semua.
Gila, adalah satu pilihan yang mungkin bagus.

Atau mungkin berhenti, and menjadi jurujual di Isetan, KLCC.

"Tapi, kau kena ingat mak kau. Duet yang die dah bagi. Banyak."

Entahlah. Aku hanyaa perlu Mel, and ibuku. and rumahku, untuk sekarang.

But, no matter what you never see me cry.

that bestie of mine.

maaf mencuri tajuk, mell.

haha.

but, seriously, today was an awkward day.

dari melaka ke kl, in just 3 hours.
setibanya di kl, terus ke klcc.
and. .
terserempak rakan lama, and terus berjalan. hanya aku dan mel. haha.

amat seronok.

and just menghabiskan waktu bersama rakan baikku, yang kurindui.
malamnya, untuk pertama kali, ke TGI Friday'. Yeah. Sifat kampung.
Tapi, for the Very Best Meal, tiada apa dapat diberi sebagai balasan.

Iryani bt Akram, if only you know, what I know, and feel.
Ape ape, aku berterima kasih, dari hati. Kepadanya, keluarganya. . .

Biarlah hari hari mendatang menjadi segembira ini.
Insya Allah.

Fucked Up Life

KL, Acap kembali lagi.

Hee. Aku merindui KL. The many times I've been here. Tapi, belakangan ini, aku semakin menjauh dari KL. Assignment. Meeting, (hampir setiap malam), and berhadapan dengan Pondan wannabe di bilik sendiri. Gosh.

Anyway, semester 3 memang susah. take my word for it. bukan kerna assignment saje. ditambah dengan drama. kes curi. discpline problem.

i just cant wait till the third sem is over. so, that i'll have soo much fun.

they say, the grass is always greener on the other side. Apparently, i dont know which sides does the green exists. .

gowd. i just hope everything will turn out for the better. Hopefully.

:(

.New Semester, New Dramas.

.Azzah & I.



After such a long and extended holiday, the new semester finally began. Bringing with it, sigh, lots of new and old dramas, new and old friends and such. For starter, I was boarding this bus to UiTM at 9pm, on 4th of January, and there’s this Part One student, who actually knew me through the MMS week. And then of course, there are always my beloved room mates. Okay, truthfully, I was not suppose to be in the room, but then, problems occurs and like always, people very much like to talk in the back rather than confront it. Hint, hint.


And then, there’s this Tengku something who’s Grandpa has just died. The Yang Dipertua Negeri Sembilan, something. Apparently, he’s in our room now. And the best part is, he likes, OBSESS to one of the few people who constantly went into our room. And he told us. And expect us not to feel anything, and keep it a secret. Duh.

New semester, the classes, well, as they always said, “Getting Tougher by the Moment”. We have to shoot pictures using cameras, do Graphic, wear formal on Friday, and dealing with Ustaz as the English teacher. The lecturers, well, for sure is very different from last semesters’. To top it all, I signed myself us for Seni Tari, which sadly, only has 5 people in it. Four of which I am not-so-close to. Gosh, and to think that I still have four months.

And then of course, the old feud, left unsettled. Well, not a feud, more to, misunderstanding, it seems.

As for old flames, who would have thought, it rises back. Of course, yeah, I AM SO HAPPY with my significant others now. But then, what do you do if you owe this someone a position, and your assignments. Someone who really likes you… or, maybe just using you. What would you do?

It is not my intention to hurt anyone. In fact, I would very much love to please everybody. But then, The More Friend You Have, The More Enemy You’ll Get, or something. It is just something you have to deal with.

I just wish, with the New Semester and the New Year, it will not only bring with it New Dramas, but also Lots of Success, Happiness and, Great Stuffs. And may my relation does not affect my studies. :)

p/s - this one is written last two weeks. Since then, well, dramas mounting. sigh.

.Sorotan '08.

.before the cut.





.after the drastic decision.


2008 is already over, three days ago. Lots has happened since last year. Of course, what's life without dramas? Something to dish on, served hot in a platter of cruelty. Now, who wouldn't want that? Huu.

Anyway, just to keep the memories alive, I've long since decided to go down the memory lane, at least '08 lane. So, here's what been happening to me all through last year.


JANUARY 08

* My first month at UiTM. Gosh, it was tough. With the induction and such. I wouldn't be ashamed to admit that I've been crying in bed more than one times.
* I went back the very first week of January. I missed my dear friends.
* Despite all that, I know that it surely had taught me to be independent.
* Discover new friends. The folks of Dmc1a.

FEBRUARY 08

* Saw the very first time I went into Club. I wouldn't want it, at first, but Fikri was all, "Jomlah, Jomlah...", and well, yeah, it's not all that bad.
* The Valentine Day, well, apparently, someone I barely knew wish me that. It was sweet, at least while it lasted. Sigh.
* Mass Comm is lots of fun. You get to meet new people, get new insight and such.

MARCH 08

* Of course, the Higlight for this month will be that I met up with Irwansyah and Acha Septriasa. Whooo~!! Sadly, they were no longer an item. But they did look cute together, though. The best thing is I was out chasing them with Mel, my bestiest.
* FesComm went great. I was having fun. Doing an embarrassing Catwalk and being a Dress Up Mascot? Haha. That's also fun.
* The Assignment was overwhelming. Seriously. But that's part of being student.
* Oh. It's the very first time I met Rio.

APRIL 08

* Happy 19th Birthday to me.
* Exam is just round the corner, and I can't seem to stop fooling around. In fact, I went back to KL and well, things happened.
* My cousin went off to U.K. As for me, Malaysia seems pretty nice.
* Spent lots of time with Fikri and Mel. Study weeks and all. Gosh. I love them~!!
* And then, there was Final.

MAY 08

* Early May, still in exam "gloomy" mood.
* But, I still managed to stroll around Uptown, get myself a sweater, and meet Kobain Agrabain, for the first time too.
* The attempt to get a car license, which eventually, did not turn out great and brought me to Rawang, Fikri's house instead.
* Being a Bitch, twice.

JUNE 08

* Still not giving up, I strive on the License thing. Gosh. For a weak person, it was hard.
* Semester break. After a while, I started to get Real Bored. Luckily there was Fikri.
* Being a bitch, thrice and ended up getting a Loved one. Thanks Syah.

JULY 08

* Senior already. Huu.
* Back to being single. I was strong, and I got over it quick.
* Meet new friend, Fyan, from Mass Comm.
* Messed lots of things up. What can i say? I am clumsy, way clumsy.
* Moved to new rooms, with all my Anak2.
* Being a Bitch.
* Involved in one's relation. Sorry everyone, didn't mean that to happen.

AUGUST 08

* Presenting, the New line of Komed. And I'm in the line. Gosh. There must be lots of talking done. "Acap wannnabe", "the bitch", and all... But then, I was chosen, there must be a reason for that.
* Second sem, the stakes are higher.
* Add to that, all the while being watched by an eagle eye.
* And then, there was FesKem.

SEPTEMBER 08

* Happy Fasting Month. The best thing about it, I passed my car license, finally, on the third day of Fasting.
* Drama keeps going on.
* Syerie and Azzah, all the while provided lots of supports, and all the others.
* Finally, a break before Raya. Topman, Big Kudos thanks to Fikri.

OCTOBER 08

* Minal 'Aidil Wal Faizin. Happy Hari Raya.
* The last Public Speaking, which i didnt do as well as the Geisha thing.
* Assignments all around. All works now. Oh. Add to that the "Jamuan Hari Raya" and Dean List ceremony. Been real busy.
* Manap, thanks for the ride. My first baby step to Annas.
* Final, already, for the second time. I know for sure I am Doomed.

NOVEMBER 08

* Still in Exam mood.
* Went to Reptile Park. I know, but its cool.
* My first time went Overnight-ing. Thanks Luls for the great night.
* Finally, the exam's over. And so are all the plans made.
* The holiday was bittersweet.
* On the relation side, I was deciding between Zeus and Syannas.
* Rawang times for me, second time around.

DECEMBER 08

* Last month of 08.
* The best thing holiday is, you'll be free and the chances of meeting almost everyone is Big. I met up with Amerul, Faiz and Padin, and Chef Wan. Huu.
* Mel's party went great. Too bad I can't go to Fikri's.
* First time I met up with Syannas. And the memoirs? I'm keeping it for myself.
* After two days, it become official, with a Ring involved.
* And then, there was being PM thing. The whole event went, as always bittersweet. Rumah dah Siap, tapi tukul masih berbunyi, something.
* And then, there was New Year 08. Which I spent with long time buddies, Shariman, watching Fireworks somewhre around Bukit Setiawangsa.
* Resolution? Got none. But, I'm botak now. I guess that's a start.

Well, in a gist, that's what been happening. Yeah. Its always easier when you listed it down, rather than experiencing it ya self. Whatever its is, Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009. :)